"Today in class the teacher asked the question, ‘Is it better to have loved and lost, or to never have loved at all?’ I said, ‘to have loved and lost’ and you said, ‘to have never loved at all.’ I looked at you and you looked at me, and thats when I knew you never loved me at all.
#25 in my “School Series” this was written at least a year ago while I was going through bad things in school (248/365)
this just tore my heart out
Everything looks the same since you left.
All I see is everything in grey,
The sky, the ocean, the trees.
It’s like everything is a shade of grey and lately I’ve been feeling so numb.
But when I met you I saw everything in this flashing red colour,
The sky, the ocean, the trees, your body and my body.
I should have saw the warning signs straight away but I ignored them and opened up to you anyway.
You crawled inside my veins and now whenever I want to feel you again I just have to unzip them,
Red seeps out of the cuts on my skin and it reminds me of you.
It gives me the chance to feel you again.
I should have saw the warning signs,
But the ambulance came and when the paramedics asked me what is wrong all I could reply with was, “Everything is grey except him.”
Once upon a time there was a boy. He was a very special boy and one day he met this girl.
Now this girl wasn’t the prettiest he had ever seen but as he started talking to her, and she talked back, he realized she was beautiful on not just the outside but the inside as well.
What he didn’t know Is that this girl was falling for him as they spoke and thought he was the most beautiful thing to walk the earth….she had problems though and she damn well knew what she was getting herself into. She gets bored easily, she can be very stubborn and self-absorbed at times , depression had been digesting her day by day for a year.
Soon they started dating and they were so happy. The happiest. But she started to get bored and annoyed…she started thinking about everything and realized she didn’t want this anymore and threw it all away.what she didn’t realize is she needs him more then ever and she’s a fool to make him wait for her. He says he still loves her and wants her,but she doesn’t want to hurt him again, no matter how much she loves him.
I see him everywhere and I think about him constantly. What they say about you don’t know what you have until its gone is so true. I want him to hold me and I want to kiss him again and I just wanna cry and hug him. I want us back. I’m scared to fall In love and that’s why I left. Actually, I don’t know why I left. I keep making up reasons and I just want you back but I don’t know If you want me again. im sorry,please try to understand Im lost and I want you back.
I don’t know how to fix things anymore
The good news is that we are back together! And this time it’s for good. I love him so much.
There’s a girl who sits across from me in science class.
And she has hair as dark as the night sky
And eyes that shimmer like the stars
And she is beautiful
But she’s also sad
And even thought they know why she does it
The other kids tease her for wearing long sleeves in the middle of summer.
She wore a t-shirt
And the stories carved into her skin
Were there for everyone to read
Noone said a word
At least not to her
But she felt the stale breath of their whispers
And in shame
She closed the book
But I read her stories
And she is beautiful
But she is also sad
And today I wore a t-shirt
And I watched her read my stories too
When someone cries so hard that it hurts their throat, it is out of frustration or knowing that no matter what you can do or attempt to do can change the situation. When you feel like you need to cry, when you want to just get it out, relieve some of the pressure from the inside - that is true pain. Because no matter how hard you try or how bad you want to, you can’t. That pain just stays in place. Then, if you are lucky, one small tear may escape from those eyes that water constantly. That one tear, that tiny, salty, droplet of moisture is a means of escape. Although it’s just a small tear, it is the heaviest thing in the world. And it doesn’t do a damn thing to fix anything.
|Jonathan, 55:||There is no such thing as “the only one”. You will meet lots of “the ones”. Only commit when the timing is right for the both of you – that can take years for some, and that’s okay.|
|Miranda, 24:||Drop pre-med.|
|Isaac, 48:||Deodorant does not count as a shower, and that haircut only looked good on Bon Jovi.|
|Anya, 42:||Make the conscious decision to be happy, and then stick with it. Society will do everything in its power to convince you that your personal happiness is dependent on something external – beauty, success, wealth, etc. – it isn’t.|
|Parker, 55:||60% of the things you think are important now won’t matter a whit to you by the time you reach 50. The trick is to figure out the important 40% and work it.|
|Megan, 34:||He doesn’t love you, and you will be okay.|
|Peter, 58:||Don’t let anything stand in your way of taking part (or all) of your junior year abroad. You’ll never again have quite the same opportunity to experience a foreign land, for an extended period of time, in your youth. It is destined to be one of the most memorable aspects of your life.|
|Eleanor, 67:||Talk less. Listen more.|
|Donald, 27:||There’s a huge difference between who you want to be and who everyone around you wants you to be. Figure out which is which.|
|Camille, 56:||Always remember: when falling off a horse, pull your tongue in.|
|Jackson, 57:||No one knows anything for sure. They’re all just doing the best they can with what they have, just like you.|
|Vicki, 47:||You’ll never have all the answers, so make every question count.|
|Donald, 38:||You don’t have to grow up to be the dad you never had.|
|Katelyn, 30:||Make the most out of college. You will never again be at a place where your only goal is to learn. Learn a lot, learn often, and learn with reckless abandon.|
|Joshua, 55:||Women love to laugh.|
|Annabelle, 38:||Drugs are not beautiful, glamorous or opulent. They are not a remedy, a solution, a cure-all, or a cure-anything.|
|Colin, 50:||You miss so much life when you sleep until 3 PM. Wake up to see sunrises; they are the most stunning of nature’s masterpieces.|
|Eleanor, 26:||Eating two pints of ice cream won’t make you happy. Neither will sprinting 10 miles. Be nice to yourself.|
|Aaron, 52:||Don’t forget to ask that girl in the Oberlin library what kind of perfume she’s wearing. You’ll buy it for her in 20 years.|
|Scarlett, 54:||Don’t be afraid to be yourself. Those that get you will love you, those that don’t, well, their loss. Just remember: Wherever you are, it’s a party.|
|Zack, 9:||I hope you’re awesome. And be nice to girls.|